Mission Finds You

Why am I here? I know. My mission is bigger than me. That makes me feel special and a little cocky, but also very satisfied with being here to endure whatever it is I need to, to keep going. It's probably a fight/torch I pick up from a previous person who lived before me. That i wish I could meet. What is your name? When will I meet you? It is important work on self, and a greater benefit to humanity. I love the mission of sharing information freely for educational purposes. THere are many missions that call to me, but one called to me a long time ago that is so much bigger than me and my lifetime...Doctors would call it delusions of granduer I imagine. A misdiagnosis of a human who finally woke up to their own mission and reason for being here. And a call to run as far and as quickly away from the man who told me to go back to sleep, poured out my coffee, and told me to stop asking questions. Trying to figure out a way to say this…the mission saved my life. It was something I held onto, even when I was out of touch with reality and maybe helped me claw my way back to earth like an access point in my brain. An anchor. Not my relationships with my friends or family, but an idea. Hi, I very passionately believe that if you didn't want information getting out then you would not fucking tell me. I think there's a reason why I'm here. I think my mission is unfolding I so very much want community and family because I don't have that anymore. …I think that that record should be protected. It should have provenance it should be guarded with a heavy fucking fortress who cares about fucking gold it's a tool who fucking cares about money fuck y'all thank you God I will fight until I am dead. You will not erase my mission. [scribbled out] Doing work that matters Maintaining control of my attention and focus without outside interference so I Can complete my mission. I am waiting. That is my mission. You know your mission. I know mine. I did what i was supposed to I met my mission